THE RESULT OF MOVING STRESS

I guess this is better than crying.
I have to keep pinching myself to make sure all this is really true, that we are finally coming home. Never before has God made it more clear that this is His timing so it is the right time. Zack and our grandson are so excited to be moving here.
We are taking the last few trip to Goodwill today and then just organizing the rest of the boxes to load up the the truck.

This may seems small to some but to me it's huge. We are getting our truck and starting to load it on the 23rd. YOUR BIRTHDAY SUZY!!! And the start of our new life. This year is so special to us. Getting to finally see Gonzo, Richardo being with all the family now and starting his life with those that love him and us being there to share with the people we love so dearly. All of you have never been more important in my life as you are right now and I can't tell you how happy and thankful I am to you Suzy for giving Rick and I this opportunity to work for you which gives us this chance to come home. I know God will continue to bless you for the love you give. Just as the bible says, "As you do it one of the least, you do it to ME"
See Ya All at the reunion. I am so excited to see Chuck. I don't even remember the last time we saw eachother.

DICK, SHAME ON YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Even though I am not a good communicator, I hope you know we all give a crap, a lot of crap. Every time I think of our growing up years, I think of you, we had awesome times. I just wish I could go back and take away all the crap I gave you. I didn't appreciate what I had and what we could have had together as a brother and sister sharing the hurts and pains of being torn away from our other siblings. No we are older and I want to be closer to all of you but distance makes it so hard to feel that closeness I need so much. One reason why Rick and I are still trying to figure out how and if we should make a move back West. whether it be Oregon, Washington or Calif. I told him we could get jobs driving school bus anywhere, and I know they pay alot better out there than here. I told Rick a long time ago that if anything ever happened to him, although it better not, I don't know what I would do without him. He is my soul mate. Anyway if it did, I would be going back to be near my family. You all mean that much to me. Now that we finally have a relationship, I HATE THIS DISTANCE!!!!!!!!!!
Not to go and see Ben and Illa is driving me nuts.
That reminds me, since I am home now, you can reach of me on my home phone better than the cell because of the bad signal here. If you need the # I'll send it to you by email.

Hi All

Just want to say hi to everyone, and also want to thank you Illa for reporting on Ben's health. My heart and prayers are with you guys. I keep missing Ben's calls and my cell phone is not working most the time at home so use our land line, unfortunately we don't have long distance so can't call out.
I got off the road again so will probably be getting a school bus job soon.
We were hoping to make the reunion but probably wont now with everything so unsure and in our economy and our income cut in half. We are also having to help our kids out financially and hoping for Amy and her husband to moving close to us or maybe in with us.
Dick, did you get that picture of Lenette, she may go by Swain. I guess Shirley remarried and her husband adopted her. Vicky said she and one of her boys saw her with her mom in Oregon City twice recently but don't think that is where they live. I wish I had more info for you. Becky even tried my space but couldn't find anything.

Keep our focus

Why is it when the guys are on the blog it is always light hearted and fun, but when us women get on here, excluding our dear sister in laws, thing get negative and confrontational??? There has been so hurtful things said and some things said on the blog that should be dealt with on a more personal basis. No one has been told not to blog but I do think we should care about other peoples thinking and how we come across. Will it send the wrong message. if so then maybe we need to think out how it will be received. Some are more outspoken than others and maybe that is because the have unsettled issues in their lives. Jesus always showed love and compassion. He thought first of others before himself.

I grew up in a family that was always very critical of anyone that was different or thought different then them. There was so much jealousy and backbiting that it tore us apart and that was one reason I chose to move away. When I feel that happening in my true family, I want to back off because these are things that Satan tries to plant in families to turn them away from each other. Conquer and divide. and it can start out in very subtle small ways. I don't want this to happen to us after everything we have been through. so shape us girls, we need to pull together and love and support each other and especially Ben and Illa and their kids. Don't let Satan get in there at this time when we really need each other the most.

SNOWING

We have snow. It has been a crazy day. Snow, sunshine, snow, sunshine. We have about 1 inch and coming down like crazy. I knew as soon as I got some flowers something would happen. It's suppose to get about 20 degrees tonight. Rick said it was over 100 in Yuma, Az. today where he is picking up.
One thing I forgot to mention about that so called paintball bruise on Rich's neck, (ya right Lueria) is the BIG smile on his face. I rest my case. It is so great to have young ones to pick on.
Love the biker joke. Some one didn't sign it though. Hey Ben, maybe when we get moved out there, I'll buy your bike from you and you will ave to get a new one. Seems crazy to me to have my bike licence and no bike. Love Ya All
Rick sends his love and is looking forward to getting back closer to ya all.

SHAME SHAME SHAME ON YOU MR BENJAMIN

I AM SURE YOU KNEW YOU'D GET MY ATTENTION WITH YOUR SUGGESTION HOW TO FIX A CAT.
I JUST TOOK IN A STRAY CAT AND WAITING TO SEE IF SHE IS PG BEFORE I GET HER FIXED BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO KILL ANY BABIES SHE MIGHT HAVE. ALTHOUGH IF SHE DOES HAVE BABIES IT IS GOING TO BE VERY HARD FOR ME TO GIVE THEM UP.
I TOLD DICK I WOULD LOVE TO HAVE HIS CAT BUT GETTING IT HERE MAY BE PROBLEM. I HAVE A STRAY HERE THAT LOOKS JUST LIKE GEORGE THAT I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO TAME. WE HAVE WOODS AND A CREEK HERE SO IT SEEMS TO BE A PERFECT PLACE FOR PEOPLE TO DROP OFF THEIR CATS. AS LONG AS THEY LEAVE MY BIRDS ALONE THEY ARE WELCOME.
I WISH RICK COULD FIND A JOB LIKE DICKS, I WANT HIM OFF THE ROAD. HE HAS A REAL PROBLEM STAYING HEALTHY. I REALLY WORRY ABOUT HIM. WE KEEP RACKING OUR BRAINS TRYING TO THINK OF SOMETHING WE COULD DO TOGETHER, WE HAVE SPENT TO MANY YEARS WORKING TOGETHER.

HI HA ALL, MY HONEY BUN HAS BEEN HOME SO I HAVE BEEN A BIT BUSY. HE GOES BACK TO WORK TOMORROW.
WELL ANOTHER CHANGE IN PLANS. TIMING IS NOT RIGHT TO MOVE, EVEN THOUGH I HAD THE HOUSE HALF PACKED.
WE WOULD END UP GOING BACK WITH NO MONEY AND TO MANY OTHER THINGS WERE NOT WORKING OUT. AS MUCH AS I WANTED TO BE NEAR ALL OF YOU AND WORK WITH SUZY, THERE WERE TO MANY THINGS STOPPING US. I THING I AM JUST GOING TO HAVE TO SETTLE IN HERE AND CHANGE MY HEART AND ADDITUDE ABOUT TENN.
I STARTED UNPACKING THEN DECIDED IT WAS A GOOD TIME TO DO SOME OF THE PAINTING AND WALLPAPERING WE HAVE ALWAYS WANTED TO DO. RICK IS GOING TO BUILD ON ANOTHER ROOM FOR A SEPARATE UTILITY ROOM AND A DOOR OFF OUR BATHROOM TO THE HOT TUB AND ENCLOSE IT. SO I HAVE PLENTY TO DO TO KEEP ME OUT OF TROUBLE WHEN HE IS WORKING.
HEY BEN AND ILLA, IT'S SUPPOSE TO BE 70 DEGREES HERE TODAY. ALSO GOOD GOING ON YOUR PROGRESS. DO YOU FIND THAT FOOD TASTE BETTER YET. JUST THING 6 MONTH FROM NOW YOU'LL LOOK BACK AND PAT YOURSELF ON THE BACK ON YOUR SUCCESS AND HARD WORK. I AM SOOOOOOOOOOO PROUD OF YOU TWO. YOU DESERVE A BRONZE STAR OR MAYBE A NEW BIKE. YA.

Hey Petro

I liked Sandi's idea. You should have heard what I suggested to Ben about what to do about his THE FENCE SITUATION. But of course I don't think ANY OF US would do any of those things, but now BEN, well he is BEN, get my drift.
Oh ya, we had 3" of snow here yesterday but warmed up here today, tonight is suppose to get down to about 9 degrees. That is so funny Ben, I was also looking for degree key on the computer. I did spell the word right to thanks for spell check, I use that a lot.

CHICKEN TOO

IF YOU SAW THE CHICKEN PLANTS WE PICKED UP AT YOU'D THINK TWICE ABOUT THE CHICKEN YOU EAT, I ALLOWS ROOT FOR THE CHICKENS THAT GOT LOOSE, PROBLEM IS THEY ARE TO DUMB TO RUN AWAY AND YOU SEE THEM WALKING AROUND LOOSE AT THE PLANT. THESE PLACES ARE PRETTY AWEFUL SMELLING AND YOU CAN SIT IN YOUR TRUCK AND WATCH THE CONTAINERS OF LIVE CHICKEN GO IN AND THEN THE FEATHERS AND BONES AND THINGS YOU DON'T CARE TO SEE DUMPED INTO CONTAINERS. STRAY CATS LOVE THESE PLACES.

New address

In case some don't have our new address, Jim has it.
Hey Dick, I love doing target practice, I have always wanted to get a rifle, Vegas has a fun target practice in the Pro Bass Store. I also like to shoot hunters with my imaginary gun, I did that a lot to hunters when I drove truck and saw the poor dear in their trucks. Sorry you hunter people, don't want to know who you are although I can guess.
Ben I never said I wasn't on your side for that new bike, infact if I lived back there I would be very tempted to buy yours. I really wish our plans hadn't changed, Zack and Chasity have never liked me and with Rick never here it is really lonesome. I'm just doing my thing and trying to support him. Nothing we do seems to make any difference to the kids. I feel like our life together has always been centered around his kids and his X. I want to at least go to our own church. Oh well, sorry just venting.


REMOVED BONNIES ADDRESS. ILLA